How being my own boss is both terrifying and intoxicating all at once

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I started my own business last year in April. After years of thinking, wanting and dreaming – I finally managed to gather the courage to register my business and become my own boss. I like to know what’s going to happen. I like to have control. Starting my own business was both taking control over my life and loosing it at the same time. And that terrified me – and it still does.

I was set on working full time in my own business from the start. Then I got offered a part time job in a really interesting project and I couldn’t resist. A fixed income is always a fixed income. It’s easy – and safe. Since September last year I’ve been working 5 hours a day (at least on paper) with that project. Imagining that I would have the time and energy to still do my own thing on the side. I thought that one year from when I started I would have everything going. I don’t.

Photoshoot with beautiful Katarina at Vivira Hälsa & Livsstil. 

 

One year later I have only taken baby steps towards my goal – a thriving business. But when I realized I was once again putting my own dreams on hold to work on someone else’s, it didn’t take me long to realize what I had to do. Once again I walked into an office, said that I want to go, that I want to work on my own dreams. And I quit.

From June 1st I have no employment. From June 1st – I will be my own boss. For real. And it scares the crap out of me.

I will have full control over what I do, when I do it and How I do it. That is part of my motivation. Having more freedom when it comes to time and money is another. And showing the world that you can have a business that is successful and still helps people and communities – that’s my third. So in parts I am taking control over my life by starting my own business. In other ways I’m totally loosing it. Will I still be miles away from my goal in one or two years time? There really is no way of knowing.

 

Following your dreams is a real roller coaster. Ups and downs. Intoxicating happiness and paralyzing fear. Laughter and tears all at once – and I love it! I love the feeling of trying. The feeling of being active. I love to take part in the outcome of my own life. I have so many things to learn, so many things to try, to fail in, to succeed in, so many things to still experience. And that is what keeps me motivated. 

Communication, digital marketing and social media are my corner stones – I help my clients reach their goals and increase their sales. I can also add photography and building websites to my business resume. I reorganized my home-office because there are too many papers, sketches and mind maps all over. And even though my desk is currently full of papers, the best thing is – I can be a digital nomad if I like. Working out of a tent in the forest or half-way up a mountain top.

 

Even though it’s terrifying at times – I wouldn’t wanna change anything. When the going gets though – the though get going. That’s gonna be my new motto. 

What’s your dream?

 Being my own boss - explore a little more

Working from a mountain top – I don’t mind. Dreamlife! 

 

3 Comment

  1. Good luck 👍

  2. Åh så spännande! Ska bli kul att följa dina framsteg. Skulle nog också vara väldigt nervös inför ett sådant stort steg.

    Vet inte riktigt vad min dröm är, men tror jag att jag sakta men säkert börjar inse att jag nog lever min dröm för tillfället! Jag kanske inte stormtrivs i Madison, främst för att jag saknar berg och skog inpå husknuten. Men jag vet att detta bara är en tillfällig plats och att det blir ett par år innan vi på riktigt landar någonstans vi kan kalla hemma! Under tiden så har vi faktiskt både tid och pengar (ibland) till att utforska andra platser 😊 Men vi har även många kompisar på andra delar av landet som gör det lättare för oss att besöka just de platserna!

    1. Amanda Matti says: Reply

      Åh men det låter ju helt underbart! Att inse att man faktiskt lever sin dröm. Jag tänker att allt inte kan vara Perfekt hela tiden utan det handlar om att uppskatta där man är just nu och vantrivs man – då får man ta ett steg åt det håll som känns mer rätt. Låter som att ni har det fantastiskt! <3 🙂

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